I MUST remember to save my work on here.
For I have already lost a days work and now must put in more effort to remember.
I was contemplating the metpahors,
The causes of my lack of confidence
- Relationship with action –
-Expansion, my relationship with
action might have gone from leaning towards the doing, towards the evasion,
because I accidently conviced myself I was wrong when I took several actions,
in terms of social media, which shouldn’t get another thought, to deleting so
cial media to moving forward in it.
My relationship with action was “Action mentality” as well as starting anywhere
and small in terms of the Happiness advantage.
I must revert to those same principles, and the same exact mentality as well.
The fuel, will once again be that I literallyhave no competition, and that it
is way too and so frekaing easy.
Then It seems this year, I propose and gave the unshakeable intention rapidfire execution to the manopshere and boy did t give back, I literally put it out there, and the rest just gave more and more to myself. This is the way the world and compound interest work.
I must trust the process, and
trust the action, in a rapidfire way. I must consciously learn from my
mistakes, becoming a minimalist is helping. Embrace a minset of power as well,
a growth mindset. Which I read before but simply did not apply!
My relationship with action was a btit focus on being an optimist, the doubt of
being an optimist. Which is silly, because it seemd that I was trying to
competet with Mantas, and I knew he did not think like me therefore It seems I
doubted one of the books Ihad. However, the Happienss advantage is NOT!
Mindset, Mindset is as Taleb described this morning everything to gain,
literally almost nothing to lose.
What are the downsides that I could minimize so that I could be free eto move forward.
Ahh the groupme! Mantas, thought he was better at me in the Groupme, and so
It seems a lot of my action was Focsued then, on repeating behaviors from the past because I went over them so many times, however, now Learning rfom Seneca, I know the direct literally all I wan tto what I want.
The 30 day challenges was a big leap yes, however I misunderstood,a dn was transpalating an ineffective way of therapy in to my writing, this mulptiplied and grew, for I am learning that words, ideas, and written concpets are really creations, like written about in journaling. They exist, and they are certions by me, there really is no such thing as something not connected.
Also, there seem to be no new Ideas? Nonsense I will most definitely cerate a new one.
I will also focus on implementing that Action Journal- GTD into my system, I have been striving for a system for so long, and I could have done GTF.
I am glad that I got Damiens and Voctr perspective, on writing and focusing on the type of suture that I want. I create my reality.
Back to focusing on how in actuality can I focus on minimizing the risk of making mistaeks on social media, and minimizing risks of mantas copying me. Its because he doesn’t respect me, doesn’t fear me.
I am brainstorming ways in which I
could make Mantas Fear me, and respect me,.
Pain points – Girls, intelctual not superiorty, Zigmas getting more love.
Monika, and Ariana. UIUC. Phi DElts, Might be best to destroy him completely
then, I am pretty dark, so my version of that Is to literally research
morality, and then find out if the matrix will punish me for ending manto
Lifetime.
Other ways include creating a groupme, and destroying him.
Or on twitter I could make it all public.
Or I could force myself into an audience with him, and then me myself I could destroy his psyche, and go over it, rehearse it in the mirror, plan some ways that the meeting could go, only plan for success, as in only plana, and see what I want to see.
- Sharing of books –
Books, and the ones that I had read, had always been a sort of secret to me. And they were the backbone of my immense confidence to myself, It is a powerful way to neuter someone intellectually when you find their high school book that inspired them ,it is their identity. I dislike that I hurt Kovas badly.
Also, with Mantas, it is as if I gave him a book and he did not give me his? Or did he through emotional intelligence though at that point he thought that I was reading a lot a lot, which Iwas but we bounced off of each other through my doing.
MY confidence was always above Manto because I had the beleifs, I was beyonf reproach and I attacked the things that I feared, seriously! I must do that now, and I must find these fraternity members and message them, all, as well as keep brainstorming how I can convince myself that my genius is unchallenged and have ultimate confidence in my brain and reasongin abilities.
This was my guarantee, that I could absolutely dominate the space and be totally unchallenged, It was the perception that mattered more than the reality. Fo this allowed e to progress, at alarming speed and break the thoughts that served no usefulness. Once I am at the top, I will e able to ride comfortably, and at that point, I have the ability, and gift of telepathy as well as a deep understanding of how other minds work, and better yet experience!
- Positive Change in perception
This is what I was writing to and
what I am finding out right now. I must focus all enegries on the type of
person I wan tto become. The chaing reaction of having a risk of writing my
private thoughts donw on paper, and in a notebook, did not do me well, and it
led to carelessness and misunderstanding. Many who blog are not used to the
internet like we are so they prospose things. However, I am better than 95% of
them, and I am from a younger generation.
ALSO! Mental toughtness does not always mean working out, mental toughness also
means KILLING VIDO INNER CRITIC< he is dead, I am doing my best in all areas
of life and It is not needed as much as it was needed before. Meditation, diet,
and positive visualization, will help me get to where I need to be. Also,
cutting the inner critic, I might think I am doing myself a favor, however,
From now on, I wuoldrather be delusionally confident.
Also, this means that my practice of gratitude, will also and must be supplemented with a practice of writing some things I did well, they go hand in hand and this is application of something confident people do in orde rot keep going. A practice I could definitely benefit from and that I will implement, by the time I am done with everything.
Thi change in perception will also incorporate the barbell rule, which will most definitely increase my upside, and totally minimize the downside. Reading Armani’s book will also be an absiolutley HUGE plus, he has provided value with me before, and I greatly appreciated the things he did fro me, that I will be more than happy to help him in whichever way possible. Also, my book a day system, Is good, and will be better once I implemtn the things I say I am going to do on my caledner. I must also conform, and make it ahbit to sticj with a HABIT to stick with only the caledner, adn the form. The rest wil be written in my story here. It is time to say good bye to evernote? I will keep going the caledner is always in play, and ALWAYS respected, if something is put on there it must be acted on, at least the Minimal viable Energy output, for Every single MORNING at home, and AFTERNoon when the sun sets I will at least put a little bit of energy in there.
An understanding fof my own cognitive biases, which is shortcutted, by the application of the article I read, which gave me a great occulus razor in my thinking, and is the truw ay to achieve what you must achieve ( separation from the rich and the poor thoughts, and accounting for almost all cognitive bias’s) gave mea big heads up in understanding as well.
PRACTICE- Write 3 things you did well every single day, and keep the CBT going, attach the behaviors and outcomes all connected. Incorporate into my habits, in the morning/ at night upon review.
- Abundance (not Lack) of money –
A secret, Maybe the
secret? To my confidence in myself, even when I had nothing, the money would
come from other people, who were doing nothing with it, and a fear of poverty,
that which was unintentionally accepted by me, from a middle class women, seems
to be what broke down many of the structures held in place before.
It also give me and out, I do not have to face this potentioanl pain or
embarrassment because I am just working to earn money first.
I must stop telling Mamyte, Kovas and Jonas when he was trying to help me out
with this stuff, its an excuse to myself and thus becomes a limiting belief
through its sheer repetition.
-After writings all of these I must write actionable advice to myself so that
My brain would do the most effective things It could do which is to focus on
the positive and life you want to cerate, in terms of never neededing money,
yet enjoying looking at it grow in all of my accounts and enjoying managing it.
I am lucky to put this into affect and create these rules by myself. These
financial habits will be easy to implement! I will focus on earning, and it
will most definitely push me forward. I am a responsible adult, and I am able
to earn my own money, through the moethids I am now working at.
A dollar more than I did yesterday seems to be a great way to go about it. The tutoring job I will apply for, as well as the audiobooks, I will gladly read, and the copywriting I will do and the selling of vegan producsts and fitness as well in a subscription based format. Will do WONDERS for me.
Ulitmately DECIDE that you will get out of the practice of asking for Money or Loans, this wil most definitely force you to become the Best type of Money person you want to be. Also, It will allow you to be fearless, for right now you are in debt, imagine the pgroess you will make when you have enough money, not to feel this way. Remmeber It is hard to comprehend you situation.
That silly talk and concept you had with Mamyte back in the day at your paretns house “ My money I worked hard for it” well, I actually didn’t work that had haha! Also, then It seemed that I spent it all to make myself feel good? IT seems to. I am glad I finally got down to the reason of that, and I am more aware and very good at what I use my money for now.
Practiceà contacting the girls on their own, upload to sical media, raise yourself up. Tailor your Social media posts Only to Girls
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-The backups are tutoring and audiobook reading. -The medium risk are copywriting and websites -The High Risks is Vlogging and Blockchain |
- Abundance of (not Lack) of a focus/school/direction
What is the hell yeah Idea that I want to be working on? I sit getting a degree, so corporations might look at me? Better access to mastermind forsure, however, I feel like unless it is… Minerva? Well evaluate the possibility, I could get more access to high proile people, and shortcuts through the name for the rest of my life? Security. It seems that I wan tot compete with Logan paul, I must find actionable steps I can take today, right now,
I
am implemting literally every lesson and thing I have learneded, therefore, one
of the best lesson learned from the bok Relentless, was that I already know
what to do, and in truth, I already DO know what to do! I must do that over and
over again! It seems to be that I enjoy reading and introspection more than
anything, just like Taleb said that writer did and therefore, possibly I should
write and do something like that as well, however, it is funny, that I enjoy
learning more. I am secretive, therefore, I have My “Mars in scorpio” If I
remember correctly, and was born in a pig year, therefore, I have a james bond
like disposition, and I enjoy keeping knowledge to myself.
I know what I have to do, I have to beat logan paul, I have to drop everything and focus on earning at least a couple thousand dolalrs for probably 3 months that I will be working on it, then, I will be free. I will do this by focusing on 3 streams, of income, and all at the same time, this will keep me engaged forsure, and I will always be growing growing growing, then I can take on any projects that I deem interesting. I know that I must also rebuild relatiosnhips as best I can, and I can do this through I know more than anyone what they need! Writing will allow me to have a good relationship with myself and will then allow me to have a good relationship with others as well.
Practice – For addressing and pushing the focus, -> Work towards all three of the business’s described above. Take the Minimum viable energy output every day, set up Smart Goals, and SLAY! Add to check marks.
- Multiple streams of (not Overcrowding) of advice.
Too much advice cause for too much thinking and imagination of negative scenarios. Evolutionarily, this caused those who were cautious and could predict to survive, but those who took the risk to progress the society to die. Statistics and logic.
Holding onto old and dangerous logs of information at home, I cannot be careless and let the possibility of them knowing something that I do not, that is not how this goes. I will have to take picture and upload everythi gto the drive where it is safe. For me to work better.
Pracitice – > Like Tony robins,
I will focus on one thing at a time, as in one source of learning at a time.
When Prepraring to enter into twitte or other forms, I will be all read up,
have a clear focus with specific desired forced behaviors.
-$Sidenote that information from Billions about fored behavior was really
smart, it was on a weaponized scale with game theory strategy, in forcing
people to do something, this can be applied to family decision, deicsions about
how to ela with leo’s, misdirection and changing trajectories of others on
twitter, politics, and myself when I need a commitment device.
- Stronger (not Less strong) relationships with Family.
-A big factor in what Mamyte said to me still weighs in my mind a bit, when she said that I seemed to be confudeing social media, with relationships and friendshsip, I wish that I had had the confidence, and responsibility, in order to revert this in that I care more about my relationships a nd am improving my relatiosnhips and social media at the same time. I am using social media as a tool, to improve my social media!
Only going to Social media with Gratitude, and a clear direction, should improve this greatly, a rule to always text back within a 10 min period, or right away if possible will help keep my mind clear off all of these loose things I still need to do. I read GTD for a reason! I have the confidence, self, love, and understanding, to implemt it now.
I need a strong relationship with myself, and I need to give myself some backing and strength on social media. Start giving, Start focusing on the positive relationship that you want, start improving the quality of your thinking. I literally cannot wait to be acquainted with some concepts. The Law of Exponentials! I must act on this very quickly, It actually is better for me to take over without doubt.
- My Abundance (not Lack) of competitiveness
I am having some things that do not line up with. I am competitive I stil definitely feel these emotions, I may have dumbed them down a bit, and in the future, there can be absolutely no crossing of me and I repeatedly make the lessons known.
I can be competitive and still love my enemies, I just don’t submit to them like Cernovich said. I must Plant as much tress as I can, that will turn into Redwoods Froest when I am older. The Lithuanian Community will be FIERCE! With Strong Leaders. You think I am going to let some middle class other non strategic, thinker influence my thinking with some small and utterly usless hilariously sujective blog? But NO! I shall not.
My best days of stragy are upon me and ahead of me. Gosh I freaking love the orchrestera.
Other notes to myself were, in the morning, written as … topics included the learning techniques.
Typing, posture, aptness. Ryto pain points and what I should do to him.
That I am Dark Triad in nature, various parts of me, the enlightened parts are of Dark Triad nature.
A system, and way to go about things.
A possible theory, that Gabriukas and Zigmas have already deleted all social media, they are free to assume whichever Role they wish to play now, they can reemberge as anyone they want.
Also, the family role, and how could be the biggest vlogging family in the world, as well as the blockchain budies and maser architects.
Since the best in the world do it, I shall to do it.
In terms of leadership people would rather follow the confident, but not as compwetetnt leader in the twtitersphere – T&M? or would that be mantas in the other twitter sphere? Its got to be me, and IT wil be me because my why is simple, to spread more happiness.
I also delved into the strategies of the different zodiacs, and how it was funny and true that I was being passive aggressive in many areas and that’s why I tweeted things, also, Mantas, and others weren’t as passive aggressive as I imagined, and so I shall improve to that level.
My system must be and will be unbreakable and strong, like my reasoning skills.
- A small analysis of my “Shit talking Matas and Tadas” during the talk when the persepctrive seemd to shift away from me, and then people would try to find a weakness and inltrate further admiring matas, Also when I said some stuff about Tadas. It seems my Inner world cretes my outer world and so I must be inner ok to function at my best. I really need to solved these issues deep within myself and then everything else will come.
- This is what made me, and drew me to purchase this course, the journaling course, over the other courses. à The Student is Ready!
I must admit as well, This! Is Problem solving, I am writing almost stream of consciousness, in a crowded environment, – Near the orchrestra of Chicago playing, listening to Gamma Binaural Beats, not having eaten in the past, empty stomach, with predetermined questions, on a Tuesday, A Bird Literally Dropped by to say hello, He liked my energy, he could sense, it, and he came to me. I am connecting. I can’t wait for when I totally deprogram myself from
I am doing most of my writing and problem solving this way, by going to exotic, trying locations, exapdning my knowledge of the arts, being outside – mindful, and listening to binaural beats as well, as writing about indepth topics. Absorbing the best energy in the world.
Knowing how to type, filter information better, and writ will make me so much better clearer. I am most definitely a man of the arts.
My process, must be unbreakable, I have a strong why iwill read those books within the week, no more waiting seriously. I will also take my caldenr seriously, hafter I have spent serverla hours writing here and sorting out my identity, I will then go right into the action that I want.
Also, perhaps this big introspection is not the best way to go about this, for example it is what I have been doing, however I need to focus on the person I want to be. That is the majot theme, that I seme to have lost! I need to fous every single aspect of my BEING on the type of person I want ot be, not that I necessarily was before, but the type of person I want to BE! The 30 Day challenges were guidelines for how I should interact, however, If I keep writing about the past, that’s all I will get the past.
Therefore, When asking the questions, I will simply write the answer of the ideal person thatI desire, and my ideal answer as if I have already answered it.
“Force” a behavior in which I manufacture an option, already decided by me, and then convince others that it was their decision. à More High quality deception tools from Billions. That seems to be all they are giving to me. Man I love it! The Elites are Laughing and giving me a wave! By the end of the month, create an option for Mantas and Matas, in which would be best, and brainstorm a way to think it is their idea.
In conclusion, there, I have pinpointed how to get me back to being competitive, I am now aware that journaling by hand was not something I was particularly interested in because it was dangerous, nor was having a journal, tht just my style, when I take iedas from these authors, twitter gurus and goshdarforsaken tweets and life hacks I have to absolutely know that I already have the jackpot and must carefully impletmetn what they say sololy to my benefit. They got my money after all didn’t they? Knoledge is actualy pretty easy to get it’s the application to get that is in scace reply – . lessons from a billionaire. – Also only buy the things that you wish to keep your whole life. – Also I must specifiy which industry I wan tot go into.
How to positively and constructively treat critism from my mother.
- Brainstorm circumvent it, thank her for the constructive srtisim. View it actually as constructive critism, and be grateful. Let her know that is not ok. Ask her politely to stop. Work in ways tha you can stil control her.
- REgulairyl talk with more girls so that you could transfer the emotions and feelings omewhere.
- Work more on being finaically independent.
- It seems once I am financially independent, many, many, many, I would say most of my problems, can be tackeled effectively.
Also, it seems that in general Ludvig gave us a glimpse into how it is good to learn however, I must tailor it to myself as I must do all things and the areas in which I study, learn and take action in the order will be .
Self Actualization 