On Starting My Story, and Who Am I?

The Story of VK

The AutoBiography

Why do Am I writing this?

To Give me more clarity.

Self Awareness

Direction

Emotioanl competency

Effectiveness

Optimization

Novelty

Self Confidence/Courage

To be Studied by those before me

“Something I would have told my 18 year old self, – You are probably smarter than most of the authors and “Experts and people you are going to encounter, Learn cognitive bias’s as early as you can and use the positive placebo and Dunning Kruger affect to your advantage. The way you do one thing is the way you do all things. Separate from the normies as quick as possible, and use positive self talk. Embrace spirituality, become a minimalist, and don’t be scared to pack up and simply fly off to another country as many times as it takes. Read, embrace being a writer, earn the favorable conditions the matrix has presented you with in this lifetime. Either blame or improve your life, there in no in between. Do Good for strategic Karmetic reasons as wel as just because you simply love it, you are most likely showing your enemies too much mercy. Unshakeable Specific Intention, Rapid fire Imperfect Execution.” Confidence and arrogance ARE the Keys to Riches. You are Bruce Lee, You can beat people even when you show them your plans. He who is quickes to adapt is always the Victor. You are making history, you just don’t know it.

I learn, and the universe tells me over and over, be selfish, don’t worry about anything, go after what you want, and it is evil to deny yourself of things rightfully yours.

I could write a book, about how I have been brainwashed that masturbation is normal and I find it fun, it is in media, Pornhub is celebrated as if it is something.

-I do have to lower my expectations about sex, these are paid actors, they always have been. However, I been brainwashed to believe that it is possible, I have read enough about it. I should fill that spreadsheet out. Look! Vidas is writing his life story! This is good! Yay!

If I act soloy in self interest for s while then I’ll get enough cred for me, personally, and then à I will only do and read, the things that EMPOWER me! That is how I know that they are good.

It seems I really only get things done once I act for myself, selfishly, I have also read that I can read every single side of every debate, and this is true, I really can.

“Well, the quality of the questions you ask yourself will determine the quality of your life, because your answers to those questions carve out what actions you take. These actions ultimately determine your future.” – Paul from Journaling

What you do consistently, is what you are remembered for. –> Therefore I want to be remember for great deeds.

I get answers by writing more, however, the biggest obstacle in my mind is overthinking, and when I started journaling, It seems I created many narratives ands tructures that were brought to my attention – my reality, putting gthem out of my mind and onto paper, – that didn’t exist. Therefore, whereas before, as I had nothing but love in my heart and forward momentum, I started imagining these negative storylines in the name of “wisdom” when in reality they were simply not true versions of the world at all.

Also, however, I get to mine deep within myself, like all of the greats before, me. Paul independently chose to look at all of these writers and saw that they write also.

I also get to keep writing, and keep my savage nature to myself as well. I won’t write triviatlities, obviously, and will write efficient, effective writing. Like WSP, and Victor Pride before me. I conquer, as it is in my nature.

The Beauty of what you teach, you become an expert, in skin in the game. I am very aware of what people upload and say, because they have put their name on it. So some options with the twitter is that I can choose to also go with an avatar, and if people copy me, well then it will most definitely come back around, whatever people post they contribute to and become more LEARNED, therefore I have to watch their psyches, and   like I wrote here, it might require more energy intuition, and work If I simply ignore a problem. I must tackle all of these things head on. I think Journaling, however writing here will help me with all of these answers.

What to journal? I a luckty to have been provided with so many of these questions! And prompts, I do not regret writing, I regret writing POORLY! And things with are untrue. I will make an effort only to write constructively. Also, I need to become an expert at what Mantas writes, also, I’ll be able to get into his mind just a lot more. I am angry with how much I have let him get away with in the name of “ The Happiness Advantage. -> Holy shit If I chase “happiness IE positivity, then I wont really feel as fulfilled, Mantas will get proportionally what I have given him.

Journaling is one of my metahabits and with it, this month I will improve my typing skills a couple minutes every day, I will increase my metacognition, I will.

Also I must, and have to respect my writing, and treat it with love, and only write strategies and things of which are importenct and help me. Much of this will help me to become more savage, ruthlessly, and effective at everything I do. I really need some W’s and I will get them, the efforts of the past, will not go unnoticed. I take full responsibility for my success, and I am absolutely certain that I will succeed. Also, since you did not fix problems in the past, they seem to now require a bit more work, get on it. You lead the way. I trust my gut, and know it will help me accomplish everything I need to.

I am glad that Kovas told me about the 1 and a half year separation, and I am glad that I am king progress, and that my mistakes are at least evidence that I am trying. I am Machievellian, Narrcisitic, psychopathic, and effective, and Delusionally confident, all of the time, and I know that that is what I am supposed to be doing. I can do this!

There is the possibility that I did not feel as much inspiration to implement the 30 day challenges into my routines for the sole focus of the fact that I didn’t really respect those guys, the smiles, and the weren’t politically as savy as I was, nor did they  have the best marketing or real me in like I absolutely know I could have, however, they gift of imperfection is a powerful on, and I am glad that I have such a freaking strong affect on people.

Once I am able to carve out a bit of time tomorrow, the 18^th, I will be able to, keep track of all of the specific, and possible, even take 2 hours to just write, just free write about my feelings, get actually deep, in order to realign myself better with what I actually want.

I will choose some deep questions and then type, and get into them deeply, like I learned from Rapid learned, I am done Procrastinating, and this will help me get there. Some things I want to review today, Metavisceralization, incorporating senses into your metaphors, linking method using a chain, as well as a symbolically associating all things reprstneded in the link method, for example the firs tletter of the name.

Another thing I would like to point out would be, that I must commit to these goals ans systems in order to become better, also, All relationships from this point have a big suspect of simply, being mute, and everything is magnified because of the energy I am giving off in my profile, especially for my mother, and those closest to me. Solution? Don’t thik, just do. I will work harder and more effeiciently, do slosloy get better, I will ignore perfection and will only writ thigns that are important. I will use cognitive biases to my advantage.
          I am simply a way others feel good about themselves, meaning, It is better to completely accept this fact. Journalnig is very powerful. I am figuring out a way to catalog them, and spreadsheet my PMO.